scream out loud, tell your story

2010-11-27T16:14:00.003+08:00

Shit happens but that doesnt mean we cant have our day.
Thanks baby, you gave me wings. Okay lame.
I know it has been decades since i last blog and thus screamo-pekik seems rather plain and dry and rusty.
My visitors has also decreased by time. Hehh ohwell..
Lately, there has been lotsa shits befalling on myself either school wise or home wise.
Thanks to my not-so-great-efforts for examinations. ._.
Uh now i must take Ns next year **scared face

Apart from that, lets say spending time with bestest has been vvvvvvv great.
My friends are all vvvvvv supposrting and vvvvvvv fun to be with and they never fail to make me laugh till i cry and of course, insult me.
Nevermine used to it hehehehehheheh -.-
I cant wait to get a new start next year and score vvvvv well in my exams, really.
Thanks to you baby, youve changed my mind perception by alot.
You motivated even more to do vvvvv in the upcoming major exams i have to go through.
Youve been through it and you did vvvvv well and i guess i can do it too.
I just have to put my heart and soul to it.
Evenso, the thought of being in a whole new batch of people send shivers down my spine.
I dont know how im gonna do but i promise to really really let those around me be vvvvv proud of me just like after getting back PSLE results.
I dont know why i flopped by alot but maybe cos of the lack of support for what i love.
The sch wasnt my choice and such but..... its okay ive gotten used to what im forced to live with.
I just want things to get better in time.
Typing this post can really be tough cos tears could barely hold on in my eyes.
Haisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssh.

Apart from that, Happy belated holidays everyone!
Party but know your limits. Muacks!

2010-10-24T12:51:00.002+08:00

Because of the anger and emotions inside me, everyone got hurt.
Im sorry ystrdy night was not good.
Suddenly i felt total frustrations and i was like burning.
I didnt mean any of the harsh words i said to you.
I need you as always.
)'=

Whats happening to me?
Just because of the retain shits, sch shits i got more worse.
Ya allah. )'=

2010-10-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

I thought i tried my best.

But actually i didnt.

Waiting for the decision is like waiting for a seed to grow into an adult plant.

Subhanaallah.

I cant stand waiting anymore, i can almost breakdown every second thinking bout this.

Please god, i dont want to retain.

I promise that id use this holiday to buck up as much as i can.

)'=

Bestfriends, classmates, ms fina, baby made a great effort to help me out and comfort me all they can but im sorry i just cant stop thinking bout this cos...... though i appreciate every single sweat and hugs youve showered on me.

Feels so disgusting breaking down 2days straight infront of a crowd.

I just dont want to retain and spent another extra year in that sch.

I want to ace my Os and get into my desired course just as planned. Ya allah help me. )'=

Afterwhich i had no guts to go to training i stayed in class gazing out.

As much as i want to calm down, the negative thoughts running through my mind got over me.

I broke down.

But.... those tears dried up and it made me fall asleep in class.

Till i didnt realise 2 classmates was actually there with me.

One word to describe myself today, disgusting.

I want to bang my head hard on the wall and then allow me to pass out.

i feel like giving up.

Hopeless right now.

This sucks )'=

Monday monday monday.......

Please ya allah, feel me and hear my heart say. )'=

2010-10-21T01:15:00.003+08:00

I failed.
As a student and as a child.
Great disappointment, worthless, useless whatever you wanna call me.

2010-10-17T19:41:00.003+08:00

Homed at around 4pm today from malacca with cuzzin-forlife.

Though not all could attend, i certainly had my weekend.
Short getaway from the stress and tension from school and life i should say.
Especially the karaoke-ing session at 1230-2.
This.....

Girlfriends. (=

But the thought of getting back results this week is scaring me.
I dont want to retain, well who wants to.
Some did say "it isnt easy to get retained." but........ i failed as a student throughout the years in secondary school, how?
But. if i do........... omg i dont know what will happen to me. )=

Friday was awwzum with Bey.
Money burnt but i had my day.
Thanks so much for everything.
Everything otey. Mmmmmuah.

Baby read this.
When he breaks her heart - the pain nvr really goes away.
When she's missing him, she's hurting inside.
When she says its over, she still want him to be her's.
When she walks away from him mad, follow her.
When she pushes you or hit you, grab her tight.
When she ignores you, give her your attention.
When she pulls away, pull her back.
When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.
When you see her crying, Just hold her and dont say a word.
When she's scared, protect her.
When she doesnt answer for a very long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with truth.
When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.
When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
When she looks at you in your eyes, dont look away until she does.
Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.
Dont let her have the last word.
Say you love her more than she could ever love you.
Argue that she's the best girl ever.
When she's mad, hug her tight and dont let go.
When she says that she's OK, dont believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 years later she will still remember it.
Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
Treat her like she's all matter to you.
Don't ignore her when she's out with you or her friends.
Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
Watch her favorite movie with her even if you find it stupid.
Let her into your world.
Let her wear your clothes.
When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
Let her know she's important.
When she's running up to you and crying, the first thing you say is 'Who's ass am i kicking today baby?'
After someone reads this, she hopes one day you'd read too.

2010-10-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

)'=

2010-10-12T12:16:00.000+08:00

Taken from tumblr. Ummmmmpffft.
Going mini-shopping at Jp now. <3

2010-10-11T16:06:00.002+08:00

Okay i hate this.
I dont feel good and i feel like crying. )=
I did plan to practice amath guestions but this totally sucks.
Today is a boring day and everything felt so wrong.
All i wanna do right now is cry myself to sleep.
Where are you? )=

2010-10-10T12:40:00.000+08:00

10.10.10 Now thats called perfection.
10:10? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

2010-10-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

I woke up feeling all sad.
Yknw what i dreamt of you. )=
I slept for an hour just now.
lol amirah is a total sucker for such things.

2010-10-04T17:38:00.003+08:00

^has nothing to do with the post but i miss being hugged tightly.

With all the efforts you gave in putting up to me, i thank you a whole
lot. Though sometimes you can make me flood the area, uh, youre still the numba 1.

This journey we're going through gonna be a challenging one, evenso, i hope for the best.
No matter what, im gonna be right here for you.
Just a few more months and everythings over, i hope.

Ill try my best to take things lightly, but i know i wont be able to handle it.
with lots of love, Mira.

2010-09-25T13:37:00.002+08:00

Im going Cikgu Nafisah's house and slacking there with my usuals. (Y)

2010-09-18T13:51:00.002+08:00

Raya outing was much awesome-er than expected.
Started of with my house with Syu baby waiting for them at my house.
And then we saw more than expected and we bcame really excited.
Was touched with what Hadi said to me thru msg after everything ended at midnight. (=
"Sorry for not having trust on your plans earlier. But its really awesome. Thnx very much (:"
Bcos some thinks its a burden to go out as a whole batch but it really went well. ^^
Guess i really created better bonds with Hadi, Aidil, Zaidi and all.
Though we covered only about 8 houses? But it was all worth it cos all in all, throughout the journey to and fro we really had alot of awesome moments.
Thanks you sec 3s <333
pics will be up soon.

Im gg raya now w my jiejies. <3 tata!

2010-09-12T13:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HARI RAYA TO ALL.
Do forgive this lil girl's wrongoings towards any of you oteys.
May god bless you.

& omg the crescent and the star happenings ystrdy was beautiful! =}

its funny how the ones who didnt fast, are the ones who cant wait to get collections. *peace.

2010-09-05T20:13:00.002+08:00

I cant wait for raya cos im gonna have a blast with my cousins again. (Y)
I hate being home cos dad pisses me off.
I want buy new phone.
I want buy camera.
I want buy lipsssssssss-stick.
I want buy new clothes.
):
I need $$$$$$$.

2010-09-03T22:00:00.001+08:00

K im officially sick! ):
So shaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddddddd. ):

2010-09-02T20:56:00.004+08:00

Birthday Boy & my present for him!

awesome people!

3 Wanita.
I kinda forced this tinggi to tag along since its his cousin. But forced isnt the right word. Haaa.
Other awesome pics @ fb.

I hope that boy had his day! Firdaus. :)
Nvm ah he spoil my balloon that cost me some bucks, i tahan okay birthday boy.
Youre finally 15, so pls grow up elok-elok otey. :B

Oh yaaaa, i shall flood this post with my diary i kinda did the other time.
This is dedicated to everyone.

Cos time never stops for anyone, it just keeps ticking.
It is this way, this is reality.
Treasure every moment, treasure every person.
Get to know more people and mix around and make those time with them something worth smiling when you reminisce.
Especially when it comes to someone very important to you, someone you care and love so much, make the best out of every time spent.
This is a random note but its something i would like to share.

When theres this person you love so much, and things got to its worse, for example there's a huge quarrel and fight you guys had, stay strong. Dont let this be a hindrance. Yknw theres something wrong, speak up, dont be afraid. But say it the right way. Cos for when theres love, there should be understanding between the two. Its a two-way thing usually.
And if there a stone in yr heart - something thts bothering whether its jealousy/insecurity - say it out, let it out cos if that person loves you, he/she will hear you out and make things better.
Dont ever give up even if it may be too much, cos theres alot of things he/she did that make you feel like bursting. Dont ever show that youre weak, show how much youre willing to endure and 'fight for the love'. Dont ever give up. Dont ever ever give up.
Dont be like me, weak and hopeless.
Cos now that ive lost my love since i gave up just like that - making a very drastic conclusion - my everydays are just full of regrets.
Its full of tears and sadness.
So never give up, try your very best, give in, take every steps needed to make things better because when theres a will, there is for sure a way.
And please dont keep those minds blabberring uneasy thoughts, but if you have a single thought, just let it out. He/she will understand.

I was wrong to have given up altho i know how much my heart yearns for you. I should have fought and be patient with you. Time has passed but still it stays the same.

2010-08-30T19:57:00.002+08:00

Kay lets ignore the previous stuffs.
Everyone is calling me emoshit now. -.-
I miss my baby Mikael.
Had assembly for the cohort of sec 3 express.
Wah, was abit hurt cos they showed 47 as the lowest pts for L1R5 which is me laa. Duhh~
But somehow, im motivated abit in trying harder. 3 weeks before SA2.
God, help me. Amin.

Cant wait for next week's happenings.
Just that.

2010-08-27T21:52:00.004+08:00

I just need my friends back.

It is sucky when everyone turn their backs on you.
Thats the situation i am in now.
I cant take it any longer.
Everyone is getting on my nerves.
Ill keep to myself in school.
Everyone leave me one by one.
They found new ones, they put me aside.
Have they ever spare some thoughts for me?
Who creates lame jokes when youre down? Who turns to a clown when you needed a smile?
Oh, i forgot. Im just a standby.
When you need me, you come. And when you have someone else, you go.
Im just like bra you put on and off.

SHARED? Hah we're no more okay.
Get that right.

Right now, i hate school cos everyday sucks.
)':
and i dont want to go Taiwan!
And i hate school!

Stop acting that everythings alright, cos its f-ing not.

2010-08-23T15:08:00.002+08:00

TOTALLY BUSY WITH SCH AND FAMILY, AND BABY. haahahha NOT.
ILL UPDATE A PROPER ONE SOON.

2010-08-22T09:52:00.002+08:00

Other pics at FB. :D

Im still waiting for my turn to bathe, so thats how i look. HHAAHA.
Im going Malacca for a day to collect stuffs.

Baby sorta motivated me to study. Haaa for once, or atlast. ^^
Thanks eh baby.
Kay, im off now.

2010-08-08T23:55:00.002+08:00

its not what it seems. Well thats for me.
Cousins gathering for August babies just now. loves~

Im a very careless girl uh.
So many troubles here and there.
I misplaced my camera which is very precious to me. ):
God, whats happening to me?

Thanks to my bby again for the everydaysssssssssssssssss.
Serious okay.
Ive got nothing to blog day by day.
HAPPY FASTING MONTH TO ALL MUSLIMS!

2010-08-01T15:24:00.004+08:00

Saturday was my day off from home.
Purrrfection.
Wind blowing on me.
I was totally like a princess that day.
Had peacetime and it was totally worth it.
"Call me Cinderella."

She's an awesome songwriter of her own and a singer.
Find her at youtube, Lisa Scinta.
Someday, i wanna be like her. Eheh.

2010-07-29T19:09:00.004+08:00

Kay i forgot what i wanted to post since that time so let me start afresh.

Todays Thursday, tmrws Fri.
Duuh.
This week wasnt that bad but also wasnt that good at all.
Everyday my bedsheet was soaked in tears, wet tissues scattered all over my bed.
Yet no one in this house bloody cares.
Sometimes i would love to sneak out late nights so that i could take a breather but i know im forbitted.

I just needed some understanding.
Why does no one get that.
Dont you see the thick eyebags i have every morning?
I have feelings too.
Now all i wanna do is stay quiet, im not gonna say much.
Ill let everyone use me as much as they want, keep lying to me everytime cos ill do nothing.
Im gonna stay to myself now.

I know im small in size, but thats not a reason to use me.
I know everything i do and say has no use anymore, cos evryone is against me.
Lets just say, i give up.

Sch stuffs wise, its better.
Thanks mates for helping me do the sums.
But friends.. i have not much to say.
I neither want to make myself more teary nor do i want to hurt those people.
But no matter what, im thankful for everything.

To sweetheart,
we're still going on strong. <3
With all the efforts you gave in putting up to me, i thank you a whole lot.
Though sometimes, just like just now pfffts, you almost make me cry ah, but nvm you tetap my number 1 okay.
Please stay by me always.

Lets just try to smile dear A!mirah.

2010-07-26T16:07:00.002+08:00

Okay hi im back!
Hee but just for awhile.
Ive been very busy i guess with school.
Though Amath is still killing me, i think im adapting better.
Oh yaaaaa~ I didnt sleep in class already and thats an achievement.
Okaaaaaaaaaaay time isnt on my side.
Ive got to go.
Ill post on my well-beings, promise.
:)
Muah-ed!

2010-07-08T19:55:00.003+08:00

Rhiannon!

Training has been very tiring till i slept for half an hour on stage while the rests left me alone playing their matches.
Before i fell asleep, i was listening to music from my phone.
And from there, it made me ponder on how things are now.
Ive been sleeping late spending time with bestest.
Many many thanks for comforting me and being my everyday companion.
I love the way we are now. <333
But when certain things gets better, theres bound to be some other stuffs that got to its worst.
Family.
Just let this be between me and bestest.
): I just know right now that that word is meaningless already.

And today.
Stewpig fark.
Phone gone for a day. ):
Only a few hours and i feel like killing that big belly cb.
Ahhhhhhhhhh fark.
This isnt fun anymore!

Imy too much liao laaa pantat.

2010-07-05T11:06:00.002+08:00

Candid. Haha.

Sooooo.. Arts Night was fun in some way.
Became irritated cos idk what to wear. ):
Met Fir, Wati & Chik at JP's banquet for brunch and soonafter the rest from 2T1 came.
Head to Rv by bus and we were soo cute walking together and rushing.
I had my night, i guess.
"I felt sooooooo...." Heeee!
Head JP for Mcd. Had some downs. ): Haiya.

So now im supposed to bathe!
I need be at wdlands by 1pm.
Catching Eclipse! (Y)
Tataz.

2010-06-27T20:36:00.002+08:00

K im sucha sucka.
Im supposed to do my hmwkssssssssssss.
hahahhahhahha, but i took the chance to blog abit.
Sorreh laa, want chill awhile.
I think im gonna be badddddddddddd. HAHA.
Nvm lets die with some others on assignments thingy.
I love my everydays now, thank you pantat.
See my face ^ mcm taik. hahahha.
Im in my rm with the lappy dg 'eng'.
Ahhh rightttttttttt~
Kla, sch sucks.
Sch can go and die.
Sch mcm taik.
Ugh~
No motivation at all from my house people.
All they do is criticise me, i like siul.
And when i bcome like this, they also tak pkir.
All the best for semuanya kayz.
+.=

BYEZX

2010-06-26T01:54:00.003+08:00

Okay hi.
Now im like thinking bout things.
For the past weeks, theres only one person id say.. ill always treasure most.
Pantat. Gave ni bestest this nick cos... HAHA, iknw heknws.
Ni pantat that never fails to cheer me up and entertain me.
Even though at times woah talk to him heart can break to thousands of pieces ah he still the best ah.
He tkda gua lonely siol. Hahahhahahaha.
Anw pantat, stop asking if i can grow taller.......
ITS NOT THAT I WANT IT TO BE THIS WAY, IM MADE TO BE SMALL. ugh.
Make me stress ajaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Thank you for the everydays, many hearts..

Okaaaaaaay. i cnt wait to get my 1day pay on Monday aftr sch.
Must travel thre but nvm atleast get some cash la okay.
But...... all these still no enough.
Woahpiang....... but i think ill go for what mama offered.
I iron the clothes, she pay. :S
Okaylaaa bye.
2 hours of sleep only. Mampos.
My fb pon gua bual mcm taik. :B
kkz, byez sayangz.

2010-06-25T17:29:00.000+08:00

Kalo ni ada pat rmh, cnfm gila-gila. HAHAHAHHAHA.
She came my hse after meeting her at JP. *winks.

^^

"DADDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!"
Had the trng for the world cultural village for YOG yestrdy.
Fun but alot merepek people. Zzzzzzzz.
Lazy to elaborate.
Been hanging out with bestest lately.
:B
Best laa abeh? kate bestest.

2010-06-21T16:05:00.002+08:00

Saturday.
Toy Story 3 3d @ Causeway Point with Ashley Simpson. HAHAHAH.
Kay joke, with my bestboy. :B
And chilled @ Starbucks thenafter.

Sunday.
Went to visit auntie @ her crib since she just got back from the hospital.
Slack there till 8+.
Went back to sister's crib pack stuffs and head back home by train with cousin Nur.
She sleptover my house & now shes gone. ):
She peng me ystrdy saying she close her eyes for awhile only, then she slept all thw way nia.
We wanted to do some recordings. Tsk.

2010-06-17T15:28:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAH. happy bday dong. Cute ley muke. ;B
Aww~ soo tiut.

the total score after the 4th game.

Yesterday had bowling at CSC with the abangs in liu of Achik's bday.
Last game i lacked behind cos i was holding on my pee. hahahahhaha, so nvm give chance.
After that had my veryvery late bfast & dinner at mcd and head home. Curfew marh.
Head sister's house tho.
Played with baby etc.

Now im getting ready as well as blogging.
Going to hospital to visit my dearest Auntie.
Had her operation so we're visiting her.
Idk if i can manage taking care of granny & baby otw there. :S
dah macam mummy nyer ehhhhhhhhhhh.
meeting the rests there.:)

Tataz

2010-06-13T20:13:00.003+08:00

): Kenapa ku asyik rasa sedih sahaja.
Tak lena tidur.
Tak selera makan.
Tak tenteram seharianku.
Aku geram. Aku bingit.
Aku tak gembira langsung.
Aku benci segalanya.

2010-06-12T15:08:00.002+08:00

Now i at sister's house.
Today ada birthday celebration at my cousin's house pat CCK, and we're doing this as though ada orang datang rumah dia nak masuk minang. hahahhahaha. Kecoh ah confirm.
We've got all the 'hantarans' ready here.
Later all my cousins cmg here to each take a 'hantaran'.
Andand, we even have a 2-storeyy high cake completed with a small bear on top. Awwwwwwww~
Oh yaaaaaa~ yesterday i went for my facial rightttttttttttttt, ouch eh.
Till tears came out.
Oklaaaaaaa~ Smlm tgk bola geram sia. Mcm nak masuk field jer, tunjukkan cara main.
HAHAHHAH.
Kay i want get ready. Tataz.

2010-06-11T16:56:00.003+08:00

ugh.
Today should have gone work even if it means alone.
Sianz.
Instead i told them i couldnt make it and i went for cca which was totally a waste of time.
Now at sister's house.
Going out soon to gombak again to meet mama at Cdans.
Going for facial with her at 6.
ZZZZZZZZZ, my face makin rabak liao.
Ni ah you, dah tak ngn you jer muka klua pimplessssss eh!?

Haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i online jer dngr lagu secondhand serenade.
membawa impak yg mendlm ley. ):
Shoooo shadddddddddddd.
Mikael now running around.
Just now i maen lappy ni kan, he beat my back a few times hardly and laugh.
KLAKAAAAAAAAAAA EHH B!
Klah, i want go liao.
Tataz.

2010-06-09T23:29:00.003+08:00

^Freshly taken.

Okayyyyyyyy. Mira is totally shagged from the first day's work.
Seriously. ):
My body hurts badly that i wished i could scream out loud.
Im working again tmrw, fri, mon-thurs, unsure if i should continue till last week.
Whatever it is, im gonna persevereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ Haaaaa kachingzxz!

Im managing my time right now.
Doing my hmwks and gg work.
Yay me.

Bf;love
No matter what.
Every talk was nice. Haaa~
Ystrdy seesh, couldnt pour out everything
but thank you for always lending me your ears.
I got up to tears thinking bout everything but i felt okay.
Thank you for listening to me kkayz.
Love you. (Y)
-MiraB

2010-06-07T15:48:00.002+08:00

IM WAITING FOR NISA TO COME MY HOUSE.
(Y)
We gonna do assignments togther in my room with aircon on but i must vacuum my rm bfore she comes. :B
Im listening to Secondhand serenade's songs, soo sad leh.
I miss my pasts.
"why do you do this to me....?"
Seesh, make it hard to smile & breathe.

What matters most is everything, that you feel while listening to every word that i sing.

I miss you, ALOT. ):
i mean every word ive said.

2010-06-06T15:24:00.003+08:00

Hahahahahha. Told you so.

Had badminton meetup with these 2 guys after cca on Friday.
Their playing = Hilrious-ness! :B
Damn kekek orh.
But i had fun laughing though.
And thank you for paying for the booking of court.
Tuesday okay! Lose again okay! :B

Yesterday's afternoon was spent with sisters, baby and cousin Nur.
Headed down to Bugis area to shop for some stuffs.
Baby just had his injection in the morning and he was totally not himself which is too energetic.
Wonder what jab he was given. Tsk.
Head to Sister's crib to chillout and had Dinner cum bfast and lunch.
Ish! Gonna get fat soon. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

And afterwhich at night arnd 930 bought mcdonalds and head down to the new waterfront @ wdlands. (Y)
Had soo much fun climbing up and down those obstacles.
It was packed but yay i had my night.
Even sister did the obstacles.
Gerek doh.
You, whens ours? hehehehhee. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Kay now sunday bored like tapian like toot.
Im gonna do my emath hols assignments anws after this.
:}
Soo toodles for now.

2010-06-02T20:33:00.005+08:00

^Pretty much eh. One day kay korg. Hmmmms.

At sister's house waiting for dad to fetch.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
My days = B.O.R.I.N.G

I bloghopped on a few pretty ppls and some are of the same situation as mine.
Seesh.
Im totally at lost right now.
I want to talk otp with mad like those times and cry loudly and have her to comfort me.
I miss those times.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~ Mad maner kau?!

Many things happened.
Things come and go.
Idk what im trying to get at but people arent true at all.
Always putting on a fake front when actually deep inside, they are just not what they seem to be.
Not forgetting myself, emotionally and physically.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmms.
Seesh, i miss crying on people but people too busy with other things alr.
Pfffft, so i just have to dpend on myself now.

I realised that when im sad/down/stressed, ill tend to spend money on unneccessary stuffs, not forgetting food.
Thenafter i was done with spendings, i kesal. Tsk.
I just did on Tuesday after training.
I spend it on Pizza hut.
I could have just spend small bucks on Kopitiaaaaaaam.
Hah Zzzzzzzzzzz.
And tmrw ive asked Jie Nisaa if she could meet me at JP.
For what? Shop. Tsk.
Burn eh cash.
Ive gotta stop this bad habit of mine.
Kaylaaaaa, i feel down suddenly.
byez.

Things will get better.

2010-06-01T15:43:00.004+08:00

They were the guys that tagged along.
Kay i decided not to continue tho ive alr gotten the pichas.
Ive totally no mood to do anything.
F shit.
Sometimes right i cant even do anything to fight for my rights.
How come May sucks? I thought it should be a good month.
I gave up alr, i hate this feelings siul.

Guess what, i fear falling in love ever again.
Its for sure gonna be totally different. ):
No more.
I dont need no other one.

Ive changed eh? im sorry, i dont wish to... trust me but... things changed. ):
You rmbr the simple things, we talk till we cry.

2010-05-29T21:18:00.002+08:00

Here's the part 1 of yesterday's celebration.

Had Breakfast at qiqi if im not wrong.
Its at Marina Square first floor.
Bought Nasi lemak and coke cos very hungry but at the same have to keep the total spendings for breakfast low.

Then we headed to Esplanade under the sweltering hot sun, serious.
Was silly to go rooftop but ohwell we did eventho it was damn hot.

Took lotsa pictures and a crazy video of me.
Sweat here, jump there, shake here, dance there, sing here, laugh there.
Ahhhhhhh~
Tkboleh tahan already, so we head to Marina again and now to Mcd.

Chilled there.
Bought drinks and fries.
I kena bully! ):
Then brothas text, so we head to Flyer's popeye to chop place.
.......................

to be continued when i get the pichas. (:

2010-05-28T21:47:00.003+08:00

139 wishes on Facebook.
It made me smile somehow after a very bad day.
29 wishes thru msg.
3 wishes thru phone-talk.
Sweet.
Tho it may not be a good day/year, thank you to all lovelies for spending my everydays with me.
Thank you for all the laughters youve shared with me, love youve showered on me and support youve given me. Idk why im saying this. Nak mati kot. Hmmmm.
I tak hate 10 lah, hate the year. Wah.
Thank you Nisa, Ct, Fir, Achik, Zul for spending the short day with me.
I know peh mendak but sorreh cos i totally tkde mood for anymore birthdays.
Hope the treat was enough to make up for the mendak-ness.
So less outings from tmrw onwards. Mugging time.

Im feeling this again.
Daa pass, gonna let go now.
Gotta be strong even when it hurts alot.
I know, im in no position lagi.
idk how to feel again.
No more, no more.
I wont get involved anymore cos i really dk how to feel again.
)':

Jie? My ice-cream treat will be. ):

2010-05-27T21:14:00.002+08:00

So its few hours away but im sad.
Difficult sia. Haiya.
Mcm nak off hp all the way jer.
Mcm tknk klua langsung but ill be cancelling it for the 2nd time if i do.
)': Great year, right.
Just need dad to just give me space and show me that he understands me.
Its f-ing unfair.
Hari-hari cnfm got something cock up, cnfm will make me tear.
Im soo sad that i feel like crying over again.
How?
Why? Why did everything came to this? I sedih.
Serious shit.
2010? i hate '10.
Dahla, forget bout tmrw. It wont be the same. Cock up lah sumer. Dh tk kesah.

2010-05-23T18:54:00.002+08:00

Ive got a surprise advanced bday party just now at sister's hse.
Thought it was for my cousin only. Heheh!
Shock mak oi; can cry sia.
And see what ive got.^
First they asked me to sit down infrnt of this small sq table and theyve got this tray covered.
I was to open it to see what theyve gotten for me ah.
Skali when i lifted the cloth, got bunny headband & laced-white lingerie. HAHAHHAH.
Pandai eh semua!
But after that got all those^ laa. :D
The shoes, slippers & bag are awesome. I like i like!

They got the shoes from limited edition store ah. Super chio.

Anw, dissappointments.
Some best people cant make it on Fri.
Im sad, super sad. ):
Was hoping a full hse, cos ive planned to mug after that.
No more parties.
PLEASE TEXT ME KAY IF WANT TO TAG ALONG.
I DONT MIND WHO YOU ARE.
I mean lets mix around. Pretty please k.

2010-05-21T04:46:00.002+08:00

^meeting the athletes.

I got pink form. (Y)
I know i must be crazy waking up at 350 and onlining cos there's no one on at these time.
But i just wanna update some stuffs.
Ohgod, '10 has been challenging. ):
Syu is gone and she didnt inform me.
I dont feel like going to school today.
After bathing just now, i took my lappy and brought it to my room and first thing, i started cursing.
1 of my cat pee-d ON my lappy keyboard and now it stinks like one fck.
Im super mad okay.
My hand stinks too. I feel like re-bathing right now and throwing this lappy away.
Serious shit.
This week has been horrendous and what more do i expect.
Even ppl younger than us... ugh, im not gonna talk bout that here.

Ugh i go now, want pack for sch later.
No mood langsung.

2010-05-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

Im posting as if its Saturday cos its past 12 and i know its Sunday. haha.

So after the PastVsPresent in sch whereby all alumni students from the year 19..
came back to Vs the present students in the different sports.
I love gatherings. Seeing all my seniors coming back was awesome, but not all came ah...
Played 4matches if im not wrong.
Some Pasts played anyhow only. hahahaha.

So done with that, dinner time was around 7+?
Head down to canteen just to hurry for food, skali.... "Sorry, so sorry. Have this icecream. Muslim's food have finished. Soo sorry."
Heart break, see lah, delay delay on going down somemore.
Had no appetite for icecream soo gave it away. _|_ Was looking frwd to eating eh!
Soo watched everyone eat. Called sister about dinner. She going out liao for dinner, soo feeling sian rejected the offer of tagging along. Texted Jie Nisaa if she could and wanted to accompany me, and (Y), she could and she want.
Walked to mrt alone. _|_
And waited for jie to reach Gmbk and head home to bathe and pack stuffs. Texting with this someone eh, make me stress.
Didnt know what was my final plan.
Wanted to watch movie at 9pm's but cock up. Hah.
That someone like mentel like girl-girl. Karena nye also like girl-girl. :S
Atlast didnt watch movie just headed to Lot1 and slack at mcd till about 11.
Ate Banana walnut muffin and had caramel frap(as usual).
Chit-chat, modelled, chit chat, eat.
Hahahaha. Didnt eat any main course and i lost 1kg. Hahaha.
Head to woodlands alone. Walked in the dark alone. Talked alone. _|_ Had moments alone.
ALONE. roar. K neh-mine bout that ALONE. roar.
Reached and saw baby! :B
Went in the house and what else, kissed and played with him ler.
I love listening to his laughter and mumbles. Atlast im not alone. Hahaha. So he slept first and i was on the screen til now. Chit-chat and update stuffs.

Chatted with this juice.
Hahahahah. We would be about 2years long now.
And he ar, last time different, now different.
How? Rembat pon hebat. hahahha.
Read that^ ar. Doh nyer olang. Hahahaha.
Kononnyer he want declare that he got nice chest muscles. -.- "goyang-goyang" or what eh!
Hahahahhaha. Lain macam je. Haha.

Apart from that, about sch..
Results for malay was out.
I cried aloud in malay class and quickly changed seat to the one at the back.
That one i serious disappointed and sad.
I mean where did i go wrong and what happened to me?
Top to almost bottom.
That time ar, woah, i never cried as much infrnt cikgu Naf before.
She asked me to stay behind after class and she comforted me.
She gave me advices and motivation.
Altho this is only the mid-years, it really leaves a big impact.
That only i know why ar.
I still remembered how tight she hugged me after that question.
I guess she too should know how i feel.
I just was expecting this subject to pull my overall up but now since like fcuk, dream on lah.
Lets say im expecting an overall fail.
I just need to focus next term, i really do.
thanks ah pantat for the 'motivation' and 'encouragement' you give.
Im so thankful for it till i want to rembat you till you become gay. -.-
Aku motivate kau, kau buat vice versa, suke ajer bully aku! Hak-pu-tu!
Hah.

Read my note at fb btw if youre in love.
i wanna go now.
Go where?
Go sleep like an oink-oink and dream.
Goodnight.
Mimpi-manis.
Sleep-ketat.
Love-you.
Mmmmmm-uah!
Bye.
Ahkay-bye.
*smile, cry and zzzz.

2010-05-13T17:57:00.002+08:00

And when you're home alone, bored & SUPERBLY HUNGARY
Pantat quick lai lai eat with me (if i can go out ah) Hahahhaha.
Me very hungary, me nanot tashan. Roar.
Ever felt soo hungary? text me. HAHAHAH.
Crap "siyolz". Hahahh.

Watched 'The Last Song' with my 3girls just now.
Tht movie just came out today & we soo kanchiong finish exam go buy the tix and watch it.
"Think what?! Final year exam ar?! -.-"
The movie, me likey!
Its an awesome movie because got alot kissing scenes. Hhehehkks.
But i think the guy body too muscular like not syiok for hugging. Hahaha.

Gosh, sorli i talkz likez shitz.
I reallyz hungaryz.
Ahkayz, tataz.

2010-05-11T15:10:00.005+08:00

mama's trademark pose

my bbyboy.

more pics @ fb

So Saturday was a blast.
Ice skating with cuzzins was superduper awesome.
Laughed alot, tripped alot, fell alot & ofcourse hurt alot.
Hahahah.
All this was free! Cos mama paid for all of us. :}
While we had our fun skating, bby also had his.
Mama brought him to this indoor baby theme park.
Smiling all over eh semuaaaaaa!
But ofcourse aftr sucha long day, everyone got hungaryyyyyy lor.
So we headed from Kallang to Bugis Iluma to have our late lunch.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh~ recommended place. I love the food super much.
Headed home after that and slacked.

And then Sunday was also spent well.
Went library in the morn & had dinner out at woodlands, uncle & auntie's treat in liu to mothers day.
2 straight days with cuzzins was gerek okay. (Y)

Today; Tuesday.
Im counting down till the end of exam.
Been having 4hours of sleep daily.
Great big headache once i wake up & till the end of my first paper.
Tsk.
I guess SA1 screwed up.
But not anymore.
This time, SA2 im gonna aim high.
No more negative thoughts, no more.
Im gonna start revision once holiday starts.
No more slacking, i swear. }:
Ugh. I think its coming soon, swings i mean.
Seesh, so if im at my worse, tlg faham i okay.

Tata orh.

2010-05-09T10:31:00.001+08:00

BYE!
I know its sucha unusual timing for me to get up.
Im early today cos im going Library to study with Mad.
Teehee.
Tata for now!

2010-05-06T17:40:00.002+08:00

Rindu?!
But of course, it was 4 nights sleeping with them.
How fantabulous. hahahaha.
Remember how i love making myself the joke.
I dont mind, as long as i see people smile. :}
Remember, how we like to touch each other?
Hhahahah. Kecoh much.
Remember the night whereby i was uhmm... yaa tht night when things totally went wrong.
Ahhhh~ that one im damn touched by everyone that hugged me tightly esp Nisa.
She patted my back till i was asleep.
Tho it wasnt the best of nights, the love everyone showed made it awesome.
Ahhh~ thanks. I miss all of you okay!

Ahhhhhhh.
Imma beee.
hahhaha,
at sister's house now neh.
neh neh neh neh.
ma fetching only at 9.
Mampossssssssssssss.
Amath exam tmrw.
Mampossssssssssssssss.
K bye!

2010-05-05T19:30:00.003+08:00

Someone bought my floral top already. YAY.
I sold it at $15. Cheap righttttttttt? meh meh buy frm me.
In need of cash lah.
Got more stuffs to sell away tho.

Tmrw is the continuation of exams.
Ohmymama.
Friday is already Additional math paper, nak mampos per.
hahhaah.
But tmrw is only paper 2s, both eng & malay.
Nothing much lately.
Study study study aja.
Oh ya, thanks jie Ct for teaching me alpha beta ystrdy till 630.
Whee~ now i paham liao.

K i nak go.
Mama bising.
Sleep awhile & wakeup again later at night for non-stop laughing & crapping session. :B
K tata.
Love you.

2010-05-02T01:52:00.004+08:00

Harrow peeposssssssssssssssss.
Im back to update.
But first thing first, i want to sell away these dresses/tops.
Email me @ amirahscreamo@yahoo.com.sg or text me if you have my number.
Quote me your best price, ill consider. {:

1st piece:

2nd piece:

3rd piece; cotton on floral top:

........
Hectic weeks.
Tiring days.
Eventful months.
What else? seesh.
MYEs are going on right now & i barely had enough rests for the past weeks, seriously.
It has been very mind-blasting, body-aching days.
Even for weekends, since ive been very loyal to my schoolbooks. Snorts.
I have been trying my best to catch up with things in school lately.
Eventhough overdue assignments are still undone.
Been staying in school till late afternoons for remedials, study groups, consultations & basketball-ings. Most of it was spent with dearest Syuhada<3.
She has been a megasuperawesome bestfriend, listening to me crapping/singing/complaining.

Next up.
I was pissed-off with things.
I mean its like my patience has run low.
It has always been the same thing.
Me.. me.. me... & me.......
& your words affects me badly.
Like the other time, idk if it was a joke or for real but it was pretty heartbreaking tho.
As soon as it was put down, i burst to tears & i feel this disappointment towards you.
My heart pecah seribu i tell you.
Although it wasn't said/shown/made obvious, i was damn speechless on the words said & my heart was totally ripped apart.
there is no guarantee that this love is easy;

next next up,
tmr we're going to eat chicken rice as a family.
i like i like! My parent's anni are tmrw & mama's bday on Monday.
I hope everything goes well.
& did i say things seems better now? except for some hiccups there & then, eveything is better.

I want to ace for MYEs & thenafter.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
):
Haiya.

2010-04-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

Askum. im amirah fren. posting on her behalf, she's been busy nowadays due to piles of schoolwork and some restrictions to the lappy. she kept singing and making my ears spoil. haha. maen2 eh mirah. erm, i got nomore to say. just wish you luck at schl and tkmo stress2 aye. k chaobetey.

2010-04-18T13:48:00.003+08:00

BANGLA..........................

HAHHAHHA. hot & sweaty bangla right!

Apa salah aku?
Ahhhhh~
I wanted to blog happy stuffs bout my busy weekdays, but ma always have to spoil everything.
Suddenly, she was like "dh ke belum?! dh brape jam kat situ aja?!"
I kept quiet. I mean, i havent been using this for straight 5days. ):
I want to cry sial. Cmon who start first? Biler aku prangai samer, dia nak tengking pat aku.
Dngr ceramah semua tapi masih tk sedar. Mrepek ah.

Im sorry loveylies.
Ahhh~
Ma is making me mre pissed off with hmwks & make me feel that i should just give up.
Slalu gini.
AH CB LAH. f everything. She start again! F!

2010-04-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

Sick-face still.
With my lips,^ bleeding at the centre bcos of... lovebites. -.- Dry-ness la.

Had badminton study group just now in LT1.
I came late as i was with Wati and Fir eating at mcd.
Ahhhhh~ the cinnamon melts are back, kenangans much.
And so, i ate them & had extra small coke.
I was hungry till i was cramping all around but when i reached mcd, no appetite.
And so, didnt had a meal till 10+ when i reached here, sister's house.
Before continuing, lets share bout Learning Fest...
A 2-day programme where us, sec 3s, learn out-of-book.
First day, was plain draggy.
No mood at all. Too long hours, no temans, plain boring esp 'lesson' times.
That one i cannot tahan.
But today, 2nd day was.. fun. very much better thn the first neh.
We did our models, layouts and such.
Sumpah, toilet bowls cute kan. hahah.
Our group was one of the qualify-ers but in the end, the other group won, oh well.
Andrew's camra was awesome, hee, took a whole lot of prof pichas ar. ^^
But overall, 2-day off from classrooms was ok-lah.
hahha. Here are the learning jrneyssssssssssssssssssss pichassss.

^My scandal. hahha. He's friendly & open.

Mdm Shahada, "amirah from last time til now, smile onlyyyyy!" heheh.

Aidil. hahahhaha. More pichas at Fb.

Im done and out.
Meeting jie Nisaa & Friend tmr to go Bugis.
Itll be a short meetup til 5? But ohwell, rather thn nth to do.
Must take manyak manyak pichas k. Muah.
See ya tmr jiejie! lyvm!

2010-04-07T20:30:00.003+08:00

^Hahahha. Like they always say, mukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer! Haha.
Tmrw and Fri would be the learning journey for the sec3s.
I got into grp 2, math & sci thingy, sounds fun.
Tmrw will be till 530pm, ahhhhhh~ another long day ahead.

"if you think its whats best for you, just tell me okay, ill consider." Ma said that to me just now in the car. Tears felt like dropping but i tahan though eyes watery liao.
In sch also, i just realise everyday 1 teacher will come to me and talk to me bout whts been of me lately. Just now, ms susan lim, eyes watery but i try tahan, cos the whole class was there.
Mon was Ms Fina, during CME lesson. Ahhhh~ that one cant tahan. I was like laughing and waving to her face to prevent myself frm bursting.
I guess i know whats happening to me, just that i feel hopeless and felt like crying.
My jiejies busy with their preparation alr, cant lent their shoulder. ):
Every night i nak pour out to pantat, tapi in the end, tak jadi cos pantat will make me laugh thn i frgt bt it liao. Heh. Thanks eh pantat flat. Hahhaha.

"But the main reason is that she hates her class" mama said to Ms Fina otp when she called to discuss bout me. hahah. Thats the why. Well, its not hate lah, theres some great ppl there like Chia Hui, Andy, Feng Xiang, Sandra, Elias etc but its just that theres not someone i can confide to unlike last time.
Gee gee gee!
Im hoping to make a chge to my lifestyle. Bismillah bismillah.
And ive kinda sought to ma bout my study plans.
Hoping itll help me alot and improve my studies greatly. Amin.

I used to say, " theres no point holding on when yknw nothing will chge."
Now, i realised i was wrng.
It should be, "we gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love. Cos it worth fighting for."
This is worth fighting for mira, lets persevere on.
You're strong, just hold on mira.

2010-04-06T15:03:00.003+08:00

At home, skipped sch cos im sick.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Flu is horrendous, tornado eh u? haha. -.-
Been a long time since i fell sick.
Damnxs. Throat pain, nose pain, head pain. Wht else? roar.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ i want eat till i burst. Im hungary.
Im craving for mcd, swensens, B&J, BK...... omg.
puhleaseeeeeee ma, buy for me lah.
Okay im done & out.
Hi pantat, where are you?

2010-04-03T12:29:00.004+08:00

Long post.

Then how? haha.

Let's start with last Tuesday.

Was our last day of cca as we're stepping down for mid-years.
Omg soo fast, i know.
That day was the most slack-est day & wet day ever. hahah.
Wet? Cos me and some others had oath rehearsel before tht and we had to head to cdans under small umbrellas.
The rain made me down.

Would like to say a million thanks to cheerleaders and others.
Firstly, eventho it was only a day or 2 of training, we managed to pull through.
I swear you guys look super cute with the mini skirts. esp tht jr. aww~
Also, to the team of comb cheerleaders, i miss having tht time spent with korgs. aiyak.
Teachers day? want dowant?
Secondly, thanks bestfs for spending time with me~
Fir also, altho most of the time same topic still... thanks.

Then Thursday was finally sports day 2010.
I couldnt sleep the day before.
I swear i was having chills cos mcm mana tak, competitors aku sumer kaki pnjg, aku ni kan pendek. :/
I reached MI full of nervous-ness ah. Wasnt a great sports day for me. Boo~
See my face ^ soo stress.
Serious, durings/after each runs, i feel like chopping my leg.

But evenso, i was super happy for blue house.
With all those enthusiasms and hardwork, we managed to win the title. :}
See how i flew ^. hahahahha.
omg, i didnt knw about tht pic.
All thats left is xcountry eh? or is this the total results alr? hahaha.
Went for brunch with my babies and met mad at batok and head home.
Bathed and got ready asap to meet loveylies.

Met them for the theatre thingy at esplanade quite early as they wanted to chill first.
Went marina square, few happenings.
Hi im cute. hhehehehe. K joke. ^^
Was looking for Posb machine, but cant be found.
Poor baby Syu had to mingle around with me till Suntec. Still, no sign.
The show was super awesome.
But it made me reminisce once in a while.
My stomach was drumming during the show.
Kak Hani laughed at me cos it was super loud. Hah.
But aftr the show, super draggy.
Irritated tapi must tahan.
I wasnt feeling good, cannot tahan i tell you but i need cover. -.-
But anws, head home by mrt and bus and reached at 1150 like that.

Now im at home waiting fr time to tick by for tuition.
And after tuition, heading to sister's house straight for sleepover if that pantat tk jadi nk chill dgn i kejap.
Also, cuzzins will be there to witness Man Utd VS Chelsea.
Yes! Looking forward to it too cos.....

....Can meet my Baby Mikael!
Ahhhhhhhhh~ rindu! :'}
Kay this is long.
Bye. Muah.

Jie, last long. Amin. :'}
I kan tk ader jodoh mcm dia jugak. -.-

2010-03-31T20:53:00.003+08:00

Omg.
I feel down and its soo sudden.
Tmrw is sports day, ugh very nervous its very sudden too.
Doubt i can sleep in peace.
Not much preparation done, just hoping for the best cos my running skills sucks alr.
Jiayou my cheerleaders, all the best!

Teachers have been asking me alot of qns, soo nerve-wrecking.
Guess they are concern.
I should start appreciating them. )';
Ugh, i should stop now bfore my mood changes.
Dont want tmr to be a disaster like the past xcountry day. iknwtheyknw.

Wish me all the best. ):

Suddenly i miss everything.
That feeling again _|_ hais.

2010-03-28T15:18:00.006+08:00

When was this?
Last year?
Aww~
Miss hair & m.f semua.
Browsing past stuffs makes me smile.
Met baby Mikael ystrdy since i slept sister house, soo cute.
He was chasing me around the house asking me to carry him.
Growing up to be a very smart and sachok kid. Heheh.
Had running at gmbk ystrdy, met up with Fir.
Was super late thanks to dia. Haha. Si taek, nvr kejot meeeeeeee ):
But nvm, thanks baby Mikael, you woke me up.
Done and off to chill with Fir, talked bout stuffs.
Aww~ talking with him reminds me of old buds.
Missed our chilling & 'lari dari people' sessions. ):

Around 1230 went to mrt and met Cousin Nur~
Haaaaaaaaa. rindu her.
Had our nrml lauging sessions.
Head sister house & off i went to sleep.
Had a hard time sleeping cos baby was climbing on me wanting me to play with him.
Hhahahhaa. How cute.
Atlast 1stsister got 2ndsister to close the dr and zzzzzzzzzz i go.
Woke up in time for tuiton.
Went for tuition for 30mins and homed. -.-
lebih baek tk pegi kan.

Now, im bored.
I want to go out as a family but mama.... haiya.
Sodeh sia.
Nvm la, after this im gonna do my assignments.
Soo many overdue ones, mira whats happening to you.
Ugh, my motivation and wills are gone, idk wth happen to me.
Kept running away from chers in sch due to undone assignments.
): God, give me the strength i need and lead me to the correct path. Amin.
But seriously, im lagging soo much that idk what to do to keep right back on track.
I miss teaching dia how to do math ah. Haiyo random but wth.
I missed everything.
F-shit, i better go.
No more letting down of teachers and friends, i hope. :{

Ya allah, berilah aku kekuatan dan semangat untuk tempuhi segala cobaan. Berilah yg terbaik untukku. Ya allah, help my friends get back to the right track. Give them whats best for them. Amin.

2010-03-25T20:32:00.006+08:00

Overdue picture ^

Sooooooo, had national xcountry yesterday.
Dont know my position or even our sch's position but i think i did pretty well cos i didnt walk at all, even with that pain in my stomach and legs, i persevered. (Y)
And yes, over and done with.
One load off my shoulder.

Then also on Tuesday, had heats for my 100m.
The heats very messy uh this year.
They also didnt follow the exact list.
So got to know, heats 1 & 2 for 100m Bgirls combine.
So there's like fast runners there, Ruen.. Fatin..
But Amin, got in 2nd and off to finals.
Next heats would be tmrw's relay.
Ohmy, im lagging soo much behind in my studies with too many events lined up for me.
Skipped alot of lessons due to competitions. Sucks. :/
I failed alot and i dont want to again.
I want try my best.
Atleast a pass in every subject since As are impossible.
Aiyak.
Anw, had an awesome time spending my recess with jiejies Nisaa, Azura, Fatin & Haniyati the other day.
Soo many jokes and teka-teki ehhhhh~
Hahaha. thumbs up for them, they made my daaaaaaaay. (Y)

Not forgetting, awesome day with my awesome Syu.
OK LOH! BYE!
hahahha.
Parents are away to Msia for 3days.
Mari kita partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. HAHAH not.
Cant wait to meet baby Mikael tmr! Wheeeeeeee~
Gotta go and.......
Finish up some assignments ASAP.

2010-03-21T18:05:00.005+08:00

Enjoy the vids.
Te last vid we gila sikit. AHAHAHAH.
Combined cheerleading <3

Ugh, noneng laaaaaaa.
Been on this screen for hours doing Eng & SS.
:(
Nvr felt soo noneng can.
Tsk.
Stupid eng.

2010-03-20T21:46:00.003+08:00

Though i nag like makcik ah, i love you guys ah. :) One day, we go photoshoot k? :')
I miss talking nonsense with these two - mr gabba & syu. But too bad uh. :/

Idk what happened to some ah, but trust me i miss all of you guys vvv bad. Syu, i miss gg round sch camwhoring with you ah. & rmbr last yr, slacking arnd yr hse area camwhoring & fitness-ing? haa. Miss everything. Rhia, uhmm. hard to say it here. But hey, we're parting by day.

Oh yaaaaaaaaaaa.
I just did some thinkings.
Ever heard of "ambil yg jernih, buang yg keruh"?
Hahaha.
Thats for like things tht happened but im doing it in terms of friends.
Im gonna take the true ones, leave behind the step-true ones.
I know who alr. *winks.
Alot have been passed to me, dont worry.
Cos with or w/o the step-true ones, nth gonna change. (:
I dont need backstabbers in my life, they suck ttm. _|_
The weird thing right, ive never ever talk shit bout that people ah.
They were treated like they're supposed to be treated k.
Tapi kan apakah dayanya, mereka tak boleh menghargai apa yg telah diberi. *winks.
Disappointing & heart-pricking but ohwell, the best are all around.

Some people just dont deserve to be treated nicely can? _|_

2010-03-20T20:15:00.004+08:00

Hi. Tak klaka eh koraaaaaaaaaaaang.
Yg slenge sumer aku lah. -.-
Hi Zul & Dzul, tweet tk perlu.
-.-
Baru aku tawu korg ader juge bace.
K dah.
EPICFAIL for meeeeee~ TSK.
I purposely la nvr blur tht one. -.-
hahahaha. dhdh.

Okay mendaaaaaaak~
Just came back from tuition.
Tuition was sucha bore, relief teacher came & all we did was joke around.
Waste $$. Eeeks.
Jiejie Nisaa sure will love coming to JP on weekends, member ramai marh.
Haha.
I still got tons of assignments to complete. :/
My otak dahla slow nak mampos.
Somemore amaths hmwk bertapak pat bilik.
Aiyak.

I bought donuts from donut empire.
sodaaaaaaaaaaaap.
Ah, random ah.
Topic tkda.

2010-03-18T18:51:00.004+08:00

^Soo long ago. )':

Bad headache now.
Dont feel like eating.
Dont knw wht else i can do..

Tonight will be the last night. ='{
If tonight will still be the same,
i just have to live in guilt & sadness, giving everything away.

2010-03-17T18:59:00.003+08:00

Enjot the pictures.
I have nothing to blog.

2010-03-17T09:15:00.000+08:00

first night.

2010-03-16T14:49:00.003+08:00

Thanks for making my day; Affectionate Heroines.

It was all for you.
Can we meet? ):

I suck.
Hi, no point having a phone now.
I wont be replying to anyone's msgs/calls if its not impt.
Sorry, im not avoiding anyone, im just trying to make a change.

To you, im sorry.
It was selfish of me.
I suck, i know. )':

2010-03-15T21:56:00.004+08:00

Swiss serenade was infact awesome.
Having my greatest swiss lovelies around, was indeed memorable.
All those shoutings during the concert, HAHAHA!
Very rude but ohwell, its deserving of a girl soo popular like her.
Hope you enjoyed being laughed at.
But yea, something did made me frown.
Someone i wished would be beside me always wasnt there.
I suddenly felt that cos they were soo sweet together.
Serious f.
Aiyak.
I live in regret & guilt.
Wtf right, cos im still not over the fact of it ah.
Whatever it is, im not gonna elaborate more.
Cos if i put up my feelings here, some people are gonna frown.
I dont want that to happen cos i dont like it.
I dont want to be blamed over & over again just for speaking truth.

Today = f-ed up; super sad can. BCB please.

2010-03-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

hi i wanted to blog, but tonight's conver attracted me alot.
:')
i got to go.
ill blog again soon.

big-forhead; you knw who you are.
no shame.
tsk tsk.
everyone gave you a chance to change, you dont want.
Lets just see how long you want to brag.
One day, someday, your true colours chopchop will be revealed.
Change now, my advice for you, seriously.
Prangai mntk kena rem. :)

"Garang kan kakak?" ^^

2010-03-10T20:44:00.004+08:00

^overdue; 2am supper with cuzzin-forlife

So im back!
Aiding my awesome darlings during camp was awesome.
"awesome! awesome! woot woots!"
HAHHAHAHAH.
it was great being with my great Sports Leaders.
Eat, sleep, have fun with them.
Bad & good times, no one knows how i love having fun with them.
They made my day.
The whole 25 crew members, oh they are supeeeer awesome like tht loh.
Bonded with all, the guys too.
Didnt know Shaun could get along well.
HAHAHHAHAH.
& yah, HAHAHHAHA, they get over my burps liao, even the sec2s.
So no worries now, burp all i want. -.- HAHAHAHHA taek.
Thanks for the awesome time eh!

Well i was put in-charge alone of grp 3.
Was expecting less fun but whhooooooooooooooo~
Gerek much.
Dance like crazy ar.
Having that Bella around, can get drunk sio.
HAHAHAH.
I love Daddy daniel soo much.
He put in soo much effort for all the SLs to have fun.
The sleeping times was wheeeeeee~
Especially the last night, it was cooling as it rains.
Had 'lovebites' all over my leg.
HAHAHHAHA. -.-

& ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Bathing time was f-ing hilarious okay.
Bathing in the open-shower with Joey & the 2 Nisa.
HAHHAHAHHAAHAH.
Wanna know smth?!
Someone's ehems woots sio!
Bigger than us.
But her other half small.
HAHAHHAHA.
Mine was the opposite, squishy eh?
AHAHHAHAHAHAH.
(think what youre not suppose to. AHAH, cb.)

But tmr, sch start liao.
Nooooooooooooooo`
Me no want, me want rest.
Actually i can skip sch, mama sure allow but...
Got the sec4 SLs passing out tmr.
Sacrifice for them loh.
But tmr got 2 tests.
one of which is History.
I havent revise & i dont want to fail for Mdm Tang's sake okay!
But im too tired to do any studying now.
Just hope for the best.
Aiyak.
Back to nrml schdays again, sucha sucker.
But oh look on the bright side, back to sitting with dearest Chia Hui.
Thanks to her vvv much for the updates of happenings.
:'( Booo.
TIRED!

I want foooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.
Okay tata.
Studying soon.

2010-03-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

^Chatted with jiejie! orh. :>
HARROW!
Im at baby Mikael's bday chalet.
Today is the first day, nothing much.
Party only starts tmr at 3pm.
If free, come uh. (: Serious.
Wanted peepos to come here to chill badly since there's nothing muuch to do yet.
etc Faiz uh, but he say he malas want come pasir ris.
Boo sama lu.
Just laughing heads off with cousins.
Uhm.

OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY GUESS WHAT.
MY WHOLE CUZZIN CREWHELPED ME OUT WITH CHEERLEADING DANCE.
SOO COOL.
A load off my shoulder.
:DDD

2010-03-03T21:26:00.002+08:00

Aiyak.
So many things, too little time.
Now rushing to do the slides for assembly.
Cos reached home late as i had to go for dental checkup.
Then must do History assignment... Amath assignment..
& revise for Bio test tmrw!
MAK ENGKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAU.
Mao mams ar. );
Then still need to settle the SL proposal... Blue house stuffs...
F Shit.

Eng Cher : Are you mixed?
Me : Err, no?
Eng Cher : Pure malay?
Me : Err, yah?
Eng Cher : Oh, you look chinese, you look fair. (:
Me : Err, okay. Heeeeee.

-real live conver just now.
Sorry bestf, this proves im fairer.

So tired! ):
Need a breather.

2010-03-02T16:22:00.002+08:00

At sister's crib.
Visit baby Mikael.
He's been having high fever.
Cian neh tuu hencem boy.
Watching him cry when bathing just now, woaaaaaaaah.
Sodeh ar.
He seem soo lemah, just like me (?)

Okay, i skipped cca today cos my eyes pedih & seem swollen cos of ystrdy night & i very tired.
Uhmmm, I couldnt sleep till 230+ the day before.
Serious shit, super sad.
Texted madbby but she was asleep, soo, didnt know who else to confide.
Wanted to call bestf, but.... aiyak.
I dont want disturb.
2 days straight, i feel soo lethargic.
& oh yaa, sucker day today.
Got back Amaths 1st test paper.
Got the lowest.
3/30.
Uh, cooooooooooooooooooool. I know.
Expected though.
Ohwell.
tata.

2010-02-28T23:29:00.001+08:00

f shit.
)':

2010-02-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

My heart is sore.
Its totally sore.
Get the f out of my life.
Stop with all your shits.
Stop lah bdk kecik.
Stop lah.
Cb.

2010-02-28T19:20:00.004+08:00

^Headed to Jp Starbucks.
Caramel Frap & monster cookie for myself.
Chilled & talked.

^Went to toilet twice.
Err, then walked around to get stuffs.
Then headed to take bus to go my crib.
But before that, me & Nisa was stopped by this chinese lady.
Modelling agency. -.-
Gave our names, age & number.
MAK ENGKAAAAAAAAAAAAAU.
I see the list kan, all was like from the age of 19-21.
-.-
Hah.
I soo short, model?
HAHAHHAHAH. Taek uh.

Reached my block.
Enter, and scared my granny.
Hahahahha.

Plan cock up abit uh, but ohwell.
So we're here in my room..
homeworking kot. Hahhaha.
Atleast for Nisa, shes doing her geog whereas im here blogging.
Totally not in the mood to do homework ah.
My mind is filled with soo many things right now, thats the why.
Aiyak.
Im sad neh.
Soo down due to the thoughts & doubts in my head/heart.
Its soo irritating okay.
I dont like at all.
I miss you.

2010-02-28T03:46:00.003+08:00

You kept bringing up her name, wanting me to be-friend her?
Please, even if it ain't her fault & she has got nothing to do with all the things i heard, then ask her come to me.
Because of her, hidup aku eh tk senang kau tahu?
Kau mana tahu.
Hati aku terburai like one f pon mana ada org tahu.
I kept telling myself, dont think too much, but you made me think mcm gila babi punya.
Salah aku ar?
Get this right eh, nama dia yg tercemar, biarkan dia clear-kan sendiri ar.
Even if she isnt that 'bad' as you mentioned, she's still a freaking flirt la.
Ni anak betul punya split personality.
Depan lelaki, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak engkau.
Ive heard way too much bout the wrongdoings of hers.
& ive heard too much bout the lies that her friend created.
Beyh nak aku buat apa?
Both also otak rosak, how to believe?

Alah, f ah.
Sorry ah cos iknwyknw who you are, & you mungkin sakit hati.
But dont you get it, i tknk pkirkan masalah bodoh ni.
Unless she confront me on 'her own efforts' then im just gonna give a cold shoulder throughout to her the years there.
Stop making me cry ah, please ah.
Yknw well what i hate most, why must you still bring up that topic kan.
Asyik bual je, nama dia.
Joke ni dah tak klaka lagi k.
I dont take things lightly now - for some reasons.
Whether she's in/out of my life eh, i dont even think its gonna make a diff.
You want me to be-friend her for what?
Just so that youll be able to be-friend her too?
You want, you go ahead.
You friendly per.
Count me out, just go ahead.
Cos for all i know, i just hate her to the core k.

)':
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Cbcb.
PMS mcm taik.
Tkle control ah tkle.
Tapi kenapa kena gini?
Aku kata tknk tu tknk ah.

2010-02-27T23:02:00.004+08:00

I hope im gonna be as pretty as her with my braces on.
Hehehhhhs!
Wednesday baby. Woo~

2010-02-24T19:18:00.003+08:00

Carousel Teatime.

^Malacca Pics.

Overdue pichas on top &....

Miss cousins!

Miss Kak Nur!

Miss E2!

Miss YTSA!

im missing alot of things right now!
Booooooo~
Nak '09 back ley.
Alah, dhla.
Bising ah ddk rmh!
Doh.

2010-02-22T18:30:00.002+08:00

Hihi.
Today was vvvvvvvv tiring.
Morning run was sucha murderer.
Serious tak bodek. -.-
Then must attend assembly, so bosuk.
Lucky got time bfore 1st lesson so cabot go toilet bathe.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Sunsilk! Baru sodep smell body i. -.-

I think im adoring History & SS lessons. O.O
A.M.A.Z.I.N.G! -.-
Okay what lor, interesting things to discuss on govt.
Okay what like that.
Hahhahahah.
I nak jadi tutor ah, because of yesterday.
Heheheheh.
I dapat solve seyh seyh seyh! ;D

Listen to missing you by 1st lady.
Its dedicated to bestfriend. ^^
-.-----------

I discovered some pretty old pictures.
Those days when we met.
MAK ENGKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAU!
Hehehehhe.
Rindu tak?! RIndu!?
hahhahahaha.
okayla, so tingling.
HAHAHHAHAHHA.
"FIREBALLLLLL!" HAHAHAHHA.
OMG DADA I CANT STOP FIRBALL-ing.
Bye bye.
I love you.

I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me

2010-02-21T17:22:00.002+08:00

BABY, GIVE ME ONE LAST HUG....
its a song lah.
tapi kalo dapat pon best!
hahahahah. -.-

Nothing much today.
Okay tata.
Tunggu night time yg best ^^

2010-02-20T16:14:00.006+08:00

Yes, i was saddened that i gotta go now - no longer thinking bout it nimore.
Evenso thanks bestf for tht night.
I couldnt say it all out but i knew you understood what i really meant.
Yes, tears flowed down but i was smiling at the same time.
I swear, dearest bestf, you made my days worthwhile.
Though its nothing now, but im sure that we'll stay strong.
I made it a point already that i hope itll be fulfilled.
I have to,i need to rights?
No more talking bout you, thats gonna be the first baby step im taking.
Bestf, you made me lose my worries.
I love you okay bestf.

^After-face

^Soo sweet of HildaBaybay to cheer. :D

^Before-face

My babies all soo pretty. ^^
Fanglian somemore, i like i like! :>

Had SL belaying in the morn.
Supeeeeeeeer tired.
Got panda eyes alr. ):
Ended around 10 & then the girls decided to do rockclimbing lor.
Only the 7 of us.
The rests went home alr neh.
Guess what...... Mr daniel was the first to complete & then me then Hilda!
Woooooooo~
Hands was shaking mcm gila babi punya.
Hahahahahaha.
Got to go tuition now.

Before that, lets clear things.
Im not interested pat sapo-sapo k!
All i treat equally.
Jgn salah sangka okay sayangs!

If my time is up, let me know right now.
I will find a way back to your heart.

2010-02-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hihi im backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
Hehekkkkk. -.-
Ill elaborate on the trip soon otey
cos i gtg complete asignmentsssssssssssssssssssssssss.
Aiyak~

Im still, & it seems like ill forever be sad.
Are you?

2010-02-13T15:41:00.002+08:00

^My hair frigging thick liao.
I want to cut AGAIN. -.-

Im just waiting for time to tick by for tuition.
Roar.
Im frigging bored slacking just at home.
But nvm, tmrw off to Msia to recuperate eh?
-.-
Mum said shell give me 300Rm to spend on anything i want.
I want 600Rm laa can?
I really want shop like gila, got lots to buy from schstuffs to my stuffs to forpeople stuffs.
Woah.
Anyone want to kirim anything?
Text me bfore 7am tmrw kay.

Hi you.
you tkmu on hp nyer langsung bler i tkde kk.
Kalo bored you tdo je, tkmu buat bende lain.
tdo & pikir psl i je kk.
HAHAHHAHHAHA.

You are the thunder & im the lightning.
Everything comes naturally when youre with me.

Tata, bayby.

2010-02-12T22:04:00.004+08:00

He's not gonna teach anymore.
):
Such a crucial year & he's halfway leaving us.
Evenso, ill miss you though it has only been 2 months together.

I was too tired, that i overslept & i was late for tuition.
Sorreh mum, wasted a day of tuition.

I spent my day in sch in the morn til 1215 & headed out
to Twins's house with Jiejie Nisaa.
Wanted to watch movie but i wasnt quite agreeble cos i want to scrimp & save.
Somemore, i wasnt in the mood for movies.
Only i know why..
Did try my best to smile today though it wasnt quite a gdday for me.
Frust was in me throughout the day.
Sorry Syu that you had to listen to my complaints.

Everytime i blog, i tend to feel down.
It sucks.
Gosh, i shouldnt give up, i shouldnt.
I needa stay strong just as said by loveylies.
Hide it all amirah,
its no use.
2010 sucks to the core.

I never wanted to fall in love,
just for my own protection,
i wouldnt let my heart accept it,
but whn you touched me,
i got infected.

PS.
Ill be away to Msia for 3 straight days.
From Sunday-Tuesday.
So yeah, dont think ill be using autoroam cos ltr cant control ar.
Anything contact through my mum's number.

2010-02-11T18:48:00.002+08:00

Mr sashi: (Stands beside me) Why you soo short ah?
Me: (Stares) I know la i know la! I jump-jump cant grow, Drink milk cant grow! Tsk.
Mr Shashi: (Laughs) How tall are your parents?
Me: (-..- face)(Showing how tall they are)
Mr Sashi:(Laughs out loud) Then forget it lah. Its generic.
Me: No lor! Can grow one la!
--> W eh. Amak. hahahahhahah.

Today's match was awesome although we lost.
It was totally a great fight, cheerup seniors.
Well, suddenly after the whole thing, i felt down.
I was thinking how next year gonna be like since its gonna be our time.
Ill sure do miss them alot.
ALOT OKAY.

Today's run was awesome.
We ran as a team to CCK area, arnd sunshine place & BPGH,
& to the canal near the highway.
& from there we ran at our own pacings.
It was great being with a supportive team.
The guys was an awesome motivator.
Quite a good timing, well for me.
Reached sch at 720 & we dont have to attend assembly. (:
Bathed with the girls & went back for lessons at arnd 745.

Aik.
I feel down suddenly now.
Aiyak~
Sodeh ah sodeh.
Sometimes, i just feel like giving up with studies,
cos ms lim step aku ni ader otak yang wow mcm classmates.
Im slow, i admit, i need time to catch up..
When i feel like giving up, Chia Hui helped me on.
Thanks thanks.
Its really brainwrecking being in a "high expectation" class.
Oh heck.
Stop all that laa teachers, im tired.
Should have gona NA where things are slower, but since mum & me didnt had a good talk on MY interests,
i continued on.
:/ Ni lah Swiss.
Nak 'tip-top' sangat.
Aiyak~
I text people during classtime, but they nvr reply.
Wanted to throw it all out, but i understand, they are studying.
Roar.
Must jiayou ):

Haish, now i cant let things out as usual.
Oh heck neh.
Everyone is going their own way, & im lost.
Sometimes, when i want to cry, ill just heaved a huge sigh & looked down.
Ill cry alone, i dont want to let them see or hear those awful cries nimore.
Uh f.
My friends are going to idkwhere.
Thanks eh thanks for all the 'PROMISES'.
Gerek se-sangat.

Im off now.
ive got to go for ngaji.
Wondering since when?
Since tht day.

I miss dia punya hugs.
I want to cry on dia punya shoulders & have dia cuddling me like a baby again.

2010-02-09T19:38:00.003+08:00

Hi hair long, long hair.
I want cut but i dont want cut.
Wth. -.-
But i cut alr, i cutted my fringe.
Now i look like small kid.
-.-
Hmwks are piling up alr, later i do, i do later.
-.-
HAHAHAH.
Sorreh, im frigging bored.
I was super happy soccer kept winning.
Dk why.
"Number 1 fan ehhhhhhhhhh fiq?"
Hahahahhaha.

Nights are fun cos.... can sleep!
-.- HEHEHHEHE.
Ive nothing to blog ar.
Malas want say anymore, sooooooooooo yeah.
Cant wait for Chinese new year & 3rd of march for dental checkup ^^.
&& sister's & my room gonna get repainted!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2010-02-07T19:29:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you want the time to go faster but at the same time you want it go slow.
So which is which?

:'(
Life for me is going down the drain.

The shits is coming back & im stuck right here.
Ugh, total f-ed up year-start.
total down-ess, sway-ness.
Ugh wtf.
Im a total letdown.
I hate myself & i hate everything now.

2010-02-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

Uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I lovey the school noteboook cause it contains alot of pretty things inside.
:D
It contains stick ons which have diff things written down.
I didnt realise till i read Syu's blog that we had done the same thing.
Huhuhu.
It also contains many pretty pichas which i treasure most.
Trust me, its like a photo album in there.
Heeee.

Okay heyho.
Such an abrupt start but ohwell.
I just came back from tuition.
Tiring everydays but ohwell i love nighttime due to some reason.
Someone knows laa kan.
Uhmm... nothing interesting.
Just some little kids trying to create a problem in school with me.
-.-
Jgn try my patience okay girl.
I havent flare up to the worst just yet in sch, so yeah,
just stop that stares okayokay.
Peace.
Haiyooooo, serious la, i dont want start any war okayokay, imma good person (:
-..-----
Riggggggggggggggggggggght.
Ohmy ohmy, monday E-math & A-math tests.
Scared. ):

Anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay,
am still not happy with that friend i thought was great.
Still havent realise his/her mistakes sia.
Eeeeeeeeeeks!
Oh well, lantak lah lantak.
Cant wait for tmrw!
Gonna have high tea with Family + Grannys at Carousel.
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
Formal wear i guess.

Okay gtg, waiting by the phone still.

We'll go together; we promise forever, everyday, together, we live with each other.

Yes i still do.
LY, mieraaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
--> the Fray - together

2010-02-02T19:08:00.003+08:00

Hah.
Cocok korg ar!
Uto to those 'friends' okay.
No syuhada babies, not you guys. (:
Kerek siol skrg.
HAHAHHAHAHAHA, bitch.
Lesson learnt.
"Dont judege its book but its cover"
"Dont be decieve for a good deed done"
Bitch, butch.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggrh.
Lantak ah nak label diri korg sendiri aper.
Kater kawan, kawan mcm taek.
prangai mesti mao kena kentot.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. -.-
Please okay, doesnt mean i baik2 with you, i can be taken adventage of.
DOH!

Siol la.
HAHHAHAHAHAHHA.
Buat baik tk guna.
tsktsk.

Haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
Sodeh.
I slept in class just now. Roar.
& Ive been having no appetite lately.
Just like yesterday ar. :/
Guess what, i only ate a hashbrown in the morn & 4 Mcnuggets in the aftrn yesterday.
I didnt have a full meal.
I only ate half bowl of rice at 1030 at night.
Tu pon my nenek paksa.
Idk why, haiyoh!
Im abusing myself ey. -.-
wth eh, why am i even saying it here.
GONG BTL NI BABY.

Okay la loveylies, k sorry nomore loveylies. -.-
Okay readers, nak go.
Before that, Get well okay to baby.
Yr muntah peh pekat siol.
HAHAHHAHAHA. Gong ar you.

And hey anyone going for paramore's concert?!!!!!!!!!!!!
wtf.
The $108 tickets are sold out.
Maaaaaaaaaaaaaak~
I want to get the $88 ones ASAP.
Amcm jiejie!?
Cepat lah! :/
Nak go watch.
I like them siol.

2010-02-01T18:07:00.002+08:00

Haiya.
Im dead bored & tired.
I havent been going out since the start of schor should i say
even durong hols.
It seemed as though i went out everyday due to CCA.
Damns.
So unfair.

I think im gonna start getting blacklisted.
F laa.
I cant even understand those long equations, how to do hmwk?
I tried liao, but i gave up cos i just cant.
Wtf is wrong with me?
Homeworks are piling on my desk.
Yet i dont bother cos i likee.... i just cant help it anymore.
Ugh, i downdowndown right now.
Dont bother calling.
I dont want be a burden to you.
Im sorry. :'(

2010-01-30T21:02:00.007+08:00

^ I miss them. ):
Miss sleeping at sister's crib.
Heard Mikael can walk already.
Awwwww~
Hope theyre going to Malaysia with Cousins on chinese new year.

^ I ran out of pichas yknw.
Woah first time ran out.
Went tuition just now.
Wow kay, i realise im really trying hard.
Im proud of myself & hope it stays this way or get better in time.

Idk ah org tu sincere ke tak.
After reading N.C's posts..
The situation mcm samer.
I hope not ar.
Dont like dont like!
Im trying already kay.
Haiyo.
Idk ah if i want to say "okay lets not bother contacting me anymore."
Aiyak.
I pikir many times alr, still undecided.
Im just afraid ley baby.
Aiyioy.
Buat kepala pusing neh.
Nehnehnehenh btol.
Gtg.
Tata.

If i were to kena langgar krete pon best ar. Then mati, kan best. -.-

2010-01-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

Just came back from tuition & currently uploading pichas at FB.
Am rushing right now cos dad has been complaining.
Roar.
Tmrw will be having training at Saint anthony & will be rushing to sch for PTM.
Wth, we still need to bring out unif & white shoes.
This week was full of downs especially uhmmm.. Wed?
Broke down during recess cos Jiejie suddenly asked " are you okay? "
Cant like that ar, woah.
Went toilet & staright to class.
Didnt eat that recess time.
Okay i shouldnt say much here rights?
Ill post everything on my other blog.

Kkay ill update prolly tmrw alrights.
I gtg.
Want to rest & chill.

2010-01-25T18:27:00.002+08:00

Congrats!
2-0 but could have been better.
Wednesday alrights, watergirl & cheerleader. -.-
Good game!

Went with jiejie Nisaa to catch the first match against Huayi.
Woah, for once, i see the light eh !!!!!!! -.-
The ball was directly in my way at a very fast speed.
Mampos sia, i was ready to be hit.
But thanks to the stairs, it didnt hit me.
For a moment, everyone was looking at me.
Nice one to whoever whose aiming was VERY GOOD. -.-
Thanks jiejie for the companion.

Heyho,
at home now chilling.
As said ^,
i went to catch the soccer match against Hua Yi.
I had a change of mind yesterday night but...
i was looking frwd to it from.... who knows when right.
soo... i decided to just go & support ah.
Kinda awkward at first but i became hyper after awhile.
Saw Haiy!
Hahahha, missed that joker.
Tmrw is our match against Kranji!
"I got a feeling......."
HAHAHAHAHA.
3-2 okay!
Serious i got a feeling. ^^
& wednesday soccer match again against RegenT.
Woooooo~
But hey, heard from Haiy they won 5-0 today!
But ohwell, all the best swiss-ians.
(:

I gotta go now....
to atleast do some hmwk...
& i need to think about...
Uhmmmmmmmm...
Ugh, all in my head.
F.

2010-01-24T15:56:00.005+08:00

^the pics with lovelies.

Home doing Blue house stuffs while drinking caramel frap.
& afterwhich im going to complete my assignments - tons of them.
Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

Nothing much today.
Just rotting at home & doing sch stuffs.
Damn, im soo busy with blue house stuffs, the combine cheerleading & all.
I gtg ar. ):
Text me k loveylies.

2010-01-23T14:46:00.006+08:00

Hihi,
Half of my cousins are here celebrating granny's bday.
& got colourful cupcakes siol.
school has been hectic as usual.
Tournaments has started & alhamdulillah we won the past 2 games. (:
Jiayou okay flamers.

Ups & down for the past days, as usual too.
Soo lonely but nvm, "must independent."
Thats what bby used to tell me then kan? (:
Monday school ends damn early & am hoping to catch the soccer match at Regent
& be the watergirl.. eh? Hhaha.

& hey,
i went around the school with my sweetheart/twin Syuhada
& took pichas with lovelies.
Everyone say me & Syu like twins. -.- Haha.
Miss them a whole lot. ):
Didnt manage to take alot though, booooo ):
Haiya.
Rindu dia. ):
The rests i cant upload now cos my lappy lagging ar.
Next time k next time.

Damnnation la, stresssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
Triple science.. dead sia.
A math, total noob.
wtf.
I dont understand a single thing.
Evrytime i cant understand, i tend to fall asleep or feel like texting peepos
during class.
Woah, i give up easily. :/
No fun at all, no fun..
I feel soo lousy.
Damns. ):
Nvm, ill try ill try. :/

2010-01-18T19:45:00.007+08:00

Feel like quiting badminton, cos i've lost my interest.
Cos i find no reason to continue on cos my fucking attitude kills everyone.
After that day, my attitude became worse.
I became a total bitch there.
Everyone, i know, is getting fed up with my tantrums.
Gan kept asking questions but i can't asnwer cos i myself don't know why.
3 days ago, i found myself saying proudly to Jiejie, "Im strong now, it's been 3 days i never teared!", but here i am now typing this lenghty paragraph to be sent to bbyg, crying and it seems unstoppable.
2010 hasn't been a good start, and i don't know what else i could do to make it better.
I cried and cried before i could finally sleep.
And when i woke up in the morning for school, i felt restless.
Mad has been replacing those night calls, but for sure, it ain't the same as those calls.
The thing now, my attitude, i myself know, sucks fucking badly and its worse than any year.
I want to change, i really do but i don't know how to start.
I just couldn't control the anger in me anymore unlike last year.
You may see me smiling, but it actually kills me inside to smile when i know nothing right now is worth smiling for.
I want to go back to that start, but i know i can't cos time never freezes for anyone.
Its total down-ess today and i don't want go school tmrw but i have to.
F. :'-C i gotta talk to cikgu tmrw.
I need tight hugs badly.
Anyone, i don't mind even if it's of the opp gender, i just need tight hugs.

'I CAN GIVE YOU A BIG TIGHT HUG, DON'T WORRY! 24/7 FOR YOU! i love you kkay!' -bbyg

2010-01-10T15:15:00.004+08:00

I dont want to lose this phone ar.
Heard there has been theft cases AGAIN.
Woahpiang~
Hihi, i miss you but too bad idc alr.
Starting of the year, like this.
Woah stupid thief.
May you rot in hell _|_

&, new year, new resolution like that.
Ive started saving & filling up my pggy bank.
Yayness.
Then i plan, every end of the month, im gonna treat peepos to have munch-much at a restaurant.
Only closed ones, & masih contact yg dapat. :P

& then right...........
I found my irritating & notorious cats sleeping together in mama & dad's room.
Soo cute.
Hahahahahhahaha.

Heyho!
I know ^ all that are very random.
Idk what to update on here lah.
Cos i cant express it here.
I guess ill update on every weekends neh.
1st week of sch has been pretty hectic.
With trainings, orientation days, tuitions, meetings..
Uhmmmm, ive got nothing much to say here.
Im gonna update my other blog, confirm chop chop like essay.

Uhmm, seriously, my everydays different already.
Okay tata!
I love myself! -..-

2010-01-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

First day of school eh?
Oh wow, still cant get over the fact that sch has resumed & i dah kakak-kakak seyh!
*giggles.

Okay, i was emo in school. -..-
Felt very different actually.
I was separated from the rests & soo sodehhhhhhhh,
no friend.
But nevermine, cos got a few fun & friendly people there, just hope time bonds us.
There wasnt any lesson today, all we did was talk, play games & had some introduction.
Ms Susan Lim was kinda cool but her face irritates me, she was sarcastic but funny.
I spent my time with chia hui, soo sodehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. :/
I feel weird wearing that adidas shoe for sch today, its kinda irritating too cos its hard. -..-
When i walk, got sound, like boots sia. hahhaha.
There's a pretty girl in sec 1, she was wearing cotton on bag.
She smiled at me, i smiled back. hhaahha.
Soo cute, gonna make friends. lol.

I kept things to myself today.
Malas nak share lps tu muke sodeh mcm nak kena tapak. -..-

Anw, to ______;
Idk if it was a referrence to me but sorry kalo tersinggung.
I have no intention.
I know im losing out, cos youre effing pretty.
I taknak gado, (:
Serious serious.
Takecare, pretty girl.

Ok tata.
Nak lepak pat bilik buat holiday hmwk.
Love you.

scream out loud, tell your story

With all the efforts you gave in putting up to me, i thank you a wholelot. Though sometimes you can make me flood the area, uh, youre still the numba 1.

With all the efforts you gave in putting up to me, i thank you a whole
lot. Though sometimes you can make me flood the area, uh, youre still the numba 1.